Ninety Days

Day 57

Wow! A whole month since my last post. Well, it’s been a rollercoaster ride. Highs, lows, doing everything I can to stay positive. Still no job, but three possibilities. During the last week and a half, I haven’t meditated, plus I got sick, very sick with the flu, even though I hadn’t gotten sick, not even a headache, for almost a year and a half, and here I get the flu in summer. LOL! The stress just got to me. Knocked me out for five days. But I am back! I will reinstate my meditation practices today.

In the last couple of days, I’ve been thinking, that my focus and dreams have become too small. Today’s message by Joel Osteen invited us to dream bigger. I’ve only been thinking about what I want and need in the short-term and haven’t been dreaming beyond that. I’ve been dreaming small. I am going to do my creative visualizations imagining living the life of my dreams, big dreams. I will first remember to dream instead of just thinking about surviving, and then dream bigger.

This whole experience has tested my faith in a big way. But, my faith is stronger than ever. I haven’t found a job yet, but I will. I haven’t found my soul-mate yet, but I will. It’s day 57 and it will all come to pass. So, today I begin anew my meditations after a week and a half of not meditating, I’d almost given up. And then I got the flu. I was tired. Weak. Exhausted. Disillusioned. Afraid. But I am renewed. I have faith. I’ve always had it. So I say out loud and clear. Lord, I believe.

I’m closer than ever with three second and third interviews in place. And I am expectant of miracles! I had an amazing weekend and look forward to telling you about all of the miracles that took place this week.

Remember to dream big.